Happy Monday everyone!
Ive been touched by how active the facebook has been continually and especially this week having seen some really positive support for fellow sos members – amazing seen as though a lot of people are presumably ‘strangers’. Kindness is all around us, perhaps, if we look for it and accept it 🙂 I feel very proud to be part of it/witness to it!
I’m getting a bit anxious about the project, I confess, I feel I haven’t done enough for it, should’ve contacted more people, should’ve organised more sessions, could’ve done my own pieces better…etc etc – BUT I guess that is an ongoing issue with me which I face in all aspects of my life – perhaps others can relate – enough is never enough – its not a finite ‘state’ and thus I can always pick fault with my attempts….
What gets me through Is seeing how supportive everyone is of the project and also my trying to convince myself that:-
What I have done is good enough/I’ve done ok/que sera sera/what would I say as an onlooker/there is still time…
I have started the SOS scrapbook too and that is giving me something to reflect on and work on during masses of free time I find myself having! Its really encouraging to look back and reflect on how incredible the project is and the people involved in it are. Thank you all! Again, I pick fault with the scrapbook attempt – but I enjoy doing it and it keeps me sat down/distracted for long periods of time so it has those advantages I guess. Hayley has been incredibly helpful in ‘back tracking’ for dates of key developments, so I must shout out a thanks to her!
As the title suggests, I am finding therapy through threads – I have left inpatient treatment and now find myself lost in the ‘big wide world’ (excuse the terminology – not something my anorexic head likes in reference to myself, usually!!!) and I am struggling to find purposeful use of time, or a sense of purpose full stop. I struggle to feel ‘good enough’ or like I ‘belong’ in all aspects of my life – but I acknowledge that I crave this and thus need to ‘carry on regardless’. I am certainly using stitching as a purposeful activity, and working on aspects of SOS, Its nearly the ‘deadline’ for submissions so I recognise that now is a key time to give a final shout out/entice more people and plan for the display finale! 🙂 Again, people continue to amaze me with their kind help/support in these areas… 🙂
Another ‘thread’ I have thought of lately (since reading a MIND post on facebook actually), is about online forums and their part in recovery…Its not something I’ve ever ‘delved into’ but I may look at some of these ‘threads’ too – worth a go I guess… i”d love to know if anyone else has found them helpful or not…
Scrapbooking has also reminded me of the original ‘ideas’ of stitching out stigma – and made me mindful that perhaps I need to ask the question on facebook, perhaps, about the stigma people have faced in order to add ‘oomph’ to the idea behind the display… a sensitive issue, I know, but possibly one which will stress how vital fighting against stigma is….
My hope is that everyone will, in time, reach a state of health and happiness, through their own individual paths. I include myself in that too as I do want to live a life, not just exist, I have goals/dreams I wish to fulfil, I also care dearly about family/friends so hate the effects of my ill health on them. Its horrible seeing people, who are often so lovely/talented/caring, effected by such destructive illnesses – but I live in hope that everyone will find a route to happiness – and if stitching can act towards that, in whatever way, even better!
HAVE A PEACEFUL WEEK ALL! Kind wishes, Nat 🙂